Searching for Fubu's a.k.a fuck buddies

My latest obsession lately: Looking for a fuck buddy. What's a fuck buddy?

A sex partner with whom one occasionally has sex with without emotional attachment.

Yes, I know, moral degradation blah blah blah.. but hey, I'm just feeling horny OK. Its basic instinct for a guy to want to screw as many women as many times as he can. I'm not looking for a relationship.. cuz i'm already in one. I was just looking for a 'casual intimate encounter' as the websites so aptly put it. So there I am sitting in my room, watching porn and sufing the internet looking for some other 'similar minded people' preferably in Malaysia. How hard can it be to find other young, professional adults who just feeling like shagging for fun right? We all know Malaysians are just closet sex nymphos just like everyone else, we just don't reveal it that's all.

So search and search I went. Plenty of fubu (short for fuck buddy) websites.. but mostly for western countries with very little Malaysians. So I started searching for blogs. Did come across some pretty cool and brutally honest blogs from some seriously sexed up women... but haven't been updated in quite some time.. plus how the hell was I supposed to just drop them a comment and expect them to go along anyway? So with the recent hot issue of the malaysian reporter getting caught in a new years sex party, I thought why not try friendster? After all, all the news reports made it as plain as day that the said couple got to know each other through friendster. so I thought "Hey, I want in too!"....Sex party, fuck buddy, orgies... whatever man, I'm in. (As you can see, I was feeling max horny with hormones raging).

Well... sad to say, not much luck there. No one stated interest in a fuck buddy.. but plenty were interested in sex. Problem was, all these hot women willing to be open about sex had a similar interest with me... they were looking for other WOMEN. All explicitly stated on their profiles for guys to go 'srew yourself' or 'fuck off'....Damn...

So in the end, I sign up for 2 different adult websites, adultspace.com and amateurmatch.com. One turned out to be free, but had no malaysians, while the other had malaysians but you had to pay just to e-mail them.. Damn again.

After 3 hours of surfing in vein, I gave up the quest for the day. I had just had some loving the night before, but somehow still felt so horny. I had to get rid of this horny-ness and get back to being my usual self, and not this sex maniac. So out came my secret collection of porno.. and after 3 sessions of 'self gratification'... I finally felt the blood leaving my dick and finally returning to my brain again and I felt not so sexed up again.. at least for now.

Secrets You'll Never Know

OK! First post on a new blog again. Haha.. for some reason, it just feels refreshing. Like getting a flesh clean sheet of paper, there for your to scribble whatever you want. I know its cliche, but I guess this is the part I explain what I will be writing in this blog.

I dedicate this blog to all the deepest darkest secrets that you will never know. You meaning anyone who isn't me. That means just about everyone else. So often, we live, we think, we speak, we react. But just like the suface is only the tip of an iceberg, many of us have thoughts that never leave the mind. Things that we say are a result of our rational, our reasoning and our self censoring. Not many people say everthing they think all the time, simple because some thoughts are never meant to see the light of day. But mainly, its because those thoughts are either forbidden, or wrong in the eyes of society. So we keep these secrets thoughts that we have, even if they are just thoughts, deep in our own chest, not revealing it to anyone. Like how you secretly lust for a friend, how you are always imagining your neighbour naked. It isn't always about sex. Sometimes its a selfish thought, sometimes its wanting to cause harm, sometimes its revenge, sometimes its deliberate skipping class, other times, its just plain old cheating. We even act on those dark secret thoughts sometimes, in times of weakness.

S this is what this blog will be about. Me writing all the acts and thoughts that go through my head, that's just plain wrong. Maybe it will shock you, maybe it will bore you, or maybe it will make you realise just how similar we all are. Who knows, I may not be the only one thinking all these thoughts after all. Till the next post, I declare this blog, OPEN!